Monday, July 09, 2007
Have you EVER!??!
I was thinking today about how hard the first year was for me. I feel like some people might think I'm a cold person or something for admitting that the first year was not much fun for me but it's the truth. I probably should have been on a hormone medicine of some sort or in therapy or whatever but at the end of the day - it was just rough for me. I tried to concentrate on taking one day at a time and I really made conscious decisions to appreciate the hard times because I knew even then that it would go by quickly. I knew that he was one day going to get too big for me carry in a cradle position so I needed to revel in the moment even if I was so tired I was in tears. The first year was long, for sure.
But my next thought was how quickly the second year went by. It literally flew by and now he's already a quarter of the way to being THREE. I am quite certain that the next few years will pass in a moment and all of a sudden he'll be 7....13....19. How absurd! I'm already thankful for the sleepless nights in that first year where I got to hold him in my arms, rocking, praying for every part of his little body that God might grow him into a warrior for His kingdom. What a little man he is. Be still my heart, indeed.